It didn’t register at first.
Then slowly it did.
You didn’t see my scars.
You actually thought me normal.
That haven’t happened before
when I connect intimately with someone.
At first it amazed me.
And made me proud of myself.
It felt amazing to pass in the world of the unscathed.
I where tempted to keep mum about my history.
Pretend for a while I’m like everyone else.
Not risk that look of contempt and disgust.
Or the blinders of denial going on.
All the ways people have backed away after they know.
In the end though, I’m honest with myself a well as others.
And I want an honest connection.
So whatever happens, happens.
Now, from the bottom of my heart.© REDCAT
I hope that you will still be able to see the person I am now.
As you saw me before you knew.
Also posted to Susan’s prompt at United Poets Midweek Motif ~ Authenticity
This poem, I wrote a couple of months ago, after I made a new acquaintance, who very quickly became a new friend, and thankfully stayed a friend, even after having to face the darkness that comes with my history.
Very touching yes an honest connection is so important and we all should be seen for the person we are now
I always look at a person as they are now and when I find out what is in their past, I am appreciative.
That is a true friend, who stays after we reveal our challenges to them – and, trust me, we ALL have challenges.
It’s wonderful to have a lasting friend who knows me well.
Well captured–the astonishing acceptance, the temptation to remain invulnerable, and the decision to be vulnerable. I like the poem ending as it does–but I’m glad you told us the outcome. Bravo!
This is beautifully poignant! ❤️ I had tears in my eyes by the time I reached the closing lines.
I also love a strive for those honest connections.
You are you and always a person who were there for me when I needed. Your past is a part of you and I like you.
Yes, authenticity can require great courage. And yet, I do believe it’s the better option. A heart-rending poem.