Shadow People Before My Eyes – A Triple Triolet, April Ekphrastic Challenge

Kerfe Roig

Shadow people before my eyes
Drifting aimlessly through their lives
Foggy as rainy crying skies
Shadow people before my eyes
Fading as sorrow’s darkness rise
Remembering just negatives
Shadow people before my eyes
Drifting aimlessly through their lives

Nobody holds then as they cry
No one a kind helping hand gives
Sorrow without friends multiply
Nobody holds then as they cry
Nobody these souls fortify
They are dark depressions captives
Nobody holds then as they cry
No one a kind helping hand gives

Shadow people before my eyes
What can get then to see bright life
Fading away ‘til their souls dies
Shadow people before my eyes
Unable to see the blue skies
Lost without finding hope inside
Shadow people before my eyes
What can get then to see bright life

©RedCat

I’m half a month early, but this one is written for Mental Health Awareness Month. A way to show that there are a lot of people out there who suffer from depression, and do so thinking and feeling they are all alone. Because that is part of how depression works, isolating us from the rest of the world.

But you are not alone! There is help to get!

For many there are loved ones that would like nothing better than to give help, support and love. And if you don’t have loved ones who care, there is support and help to get, from others who have suffered as you do and from professionals.
But you have to reach out or open up just a little bit for them to know you need help. And that I know from personal experience is not always an easy thing.


Writing a triple triolet as in Trapped, Imprisoned In Her Own Mind, was so fun and challenging enough that I just had to do it again. Because that way it feels like you get a chance to make the triolet go somewhere and not just be a repetitive poem stuck in one place.

To see all art and read all poetry for today go to The Wombwell Rainbow.


Kerfe Roig

A resident of New York City, Kerfe Roig enjoys transforming words and images into something new.  Her poetry and art have been featured online by Right Hand PointingSilver Birch PressYellow Chair ReviewThe song is…Pure HaikuVisual VerseThe Light EkphrasticScribe BaseThe Zen Space, and The Wild Word, and published in Ella@100Incandescent MindPea River JournalFiction International: Fool, Noctua Review, The Raw Art Review, and several Nature Inspired anthologies. Follow her explorations on her blogs, https://methodtwomadness.wordpress.com/  (which she does with her friend Nina), and https://kblog.blog/, and see more of her work on her website http://kerferoig.com/

April Ekphrastic Challenge – GloPoWriMo 2021

State of Depression – January Ekphrastic Challenge, January 13

Kerfe Roig – Clarity

Many faceted kaleidoscopic gem
Sparkling all wavelengths of light
Fiery passion interlaced with dark mayhem
Light and dark in a perpetual fight

Sparkling all wavelengths of light
Complex weave, carefully crafted hologram
Light and dark in a perpetual fight
Between bright joy and dank sorrows dam

Complex weave, carefully crafted hologram
Hiding behind social media. All’s fine!
Between bright joy and dank sorrows dam
Secretly thinking about hastening lifes deadline

Hiding behind social media. All’s fine!
Feeling there’s neither love nor care to find
Secretly thinking about hastening lifes deadline
Stuck in a flashback looping mind

Feeling there’s neither love nor care to find
Bullied to believe there’s shame to authentically be
Secretly thinking about hastening lifes deadline
Despairing of hope to ever fly free

Bullied to believe there’s shame to authentically be
Not knowing the peace of safe love
Despairing of hope to ever fly free
Searching for the guidance of a Phoenix dove

Not knowing the peace of safe love
Fiery passion interlaced with dark mayhem
Searching for the guidance of a Phoenix dove
Many faceted kaleidoscopic gem

©RedCat

Today’s poem is inspired by all three pieces of art. It’s an effort to put words on how it is to live with depression, complex PTSD, and every other traumatic rewiring of my mind.

Written in one of those interwoven forms I like so much – Pantoum. This is the first time I’ve written a longer version than the standard four verses. At first I did not intend a Pantoum, but after having written the first four stanzas (or first verse) I realized that’s where I was going. Neither did I intend a long one. That happened due to flow, rhythm, stanzas enough to make it a coherent whole.

Read Leaves Fall to Moulder, Come Poets Hope – A chant or another of my Pantoums.

To read all poems for today go to The Wombwell Rainbow.


Christine O’connor
Marcel Herms

A Dutch visual artist. He is also one of the two men behind the publishing house Petrichor. Freedom is very important in the visual work of Marcel Herms. In his paintings he can express who he really is in complete freedom. Without the social barriers of everyday life.
There is a strong relationship with music. Like music, Herms’ art is about autonomy, freedom, passion, color and rhythm. You can hear the rhythm of the colors, the rhythm of the brushstrokes, the raging cry of the pencil, the subtle melody of a collage. The figures in his paintings rotate around you in shock, they are heavily abstracted, making it unclear what they are doing. Sometimes they look like people, monsters, children or animals, or something in between. Sometimes they disappear to be replaced immediately or to take on a different guise. The paintings invite the viewer to join this journey. Free-spirited.

He collaborates with many different authors, poets, visual artists and audio artists from around the world and his work is published by many different publishers.

www.marcelherms.nl

www.uitgeverijpetrichor.nl
Christine O’Connor

Is an artist working in glass, metal, fibre and paint. Sometimes her work is based on photographs, but more often, she creates in the moment. She loves to play with texture and colour.

Christine O'Connor
Kerfe Roig

A resident of New York City, Kerfe Roig enjoys transforming words and images into something new.  Her poetry and art have been featured online by Right Hand PointingSilver Birch PressYellow Chair ReviewThe song is…Pure HaikuVisual VerseThe Light EkphrasticScribe BaseThe Zen Space, and The Wild Word, and published in Ella@100Incandescent MindPea River JournalFiction International: Fool, Noctua Review, The Raw Art Review, and several Nature Inspired anthologies. Follow her explorations on her blogs, https://methodtwomadness.wordpress.com/  (which she does with her friend Nina), and https://kblog.blog/, and see more of her work on her website http://kerferoig.com/
Marcel Herms – Hip Priest



Avicii tribute concert

So today it’s time for the big concert. The door open at four o’clock, the music starts at five, and the whole thing is scheduled to last until eleven or so. A review will follow during the weekend.

Hopefully however good or bad the concert is. It will raise awareness about Mental Health issues. An issue that affects me and many, many more in the world. And should not be seen as a stigma or a sign of weakness.

Here’s an excerpt of what I felt when I heard Avicii’a last album for the first time:
Just listed trough Avicii’s last album, TIM. It was hard, sad, and one of the best albums I’ve heard.
It breaks my heart to know this is the last. That this talent where cut short by his own hand. That whoever you are, you can fool your surroundings, and like our beloved Chaotic end your life.
It also fills my heart with Love for the friends who caught me, while I was ready to leave. I will always remember and owe you a debt of gratitude. 💖
Heart Upon My Sleeve are pure genius!
It contains some of the sexiest sounds I’ve ever heard! 😘


Original post published 5 September 2019.

Sometimes a birthday treat show up unusually early in the year, on December 5th, at Friends Arena, The Tim Bergling Foundation will host a tribute concert. Many artist, producers and DJs that worked with Avicii will perform alongside a 30-piece live band. News of the concert splashed across Swedish media the other day. Tickets where to be released at 10 a.m. today, and I know my husband and I where not the only ones glued to their screens at that time. 55 000 sold out instantly. We got two! :-)

 

 

The concert hope to aid Mental Health Awareness!

Something sorely lacking in way to many places. A tide of illness that only seem to swell in our narcissistic, social media dependent, look at me society.

Tim Bergling is a good example of however famous, of means and loved, by family, friends and the world, you are, if you suffer from a mental illness and don’t get the right help, you may end up taking your own life. It doesn’t matter who you are, or your circumstances, if you need help you should GET IT and you should NOT be ashamed to ask for it. There are many of us who have lost family or friends this way.

The only reason I can sit here today writing is because I did get help, both when I asked for it and when I where to far gone to do even that.

So YES caring makes a difference, and everyone needs to remember that mental illness have always been way more common than humanity have wanted to accept and seem to be on the rise in our fast paced world.


Lot in Life

Life is not easy for most of homo sapiens sapiens. That’s one of the reasons to show compassion for your fellow human.

Still in both happiness and despair there is degrees.

Where in the bell curve of what we call normal did you get born?
What life choices were made for you by nature herself while you lay gestating in the womb.

Are you a cis-straight male or female? You probably are, most are.
On the other hand, they might not be the audience for this.
So who knows?

Anyhow…

If you belong to the set of cis-straight males and females, your life might still end up pure hell. But it will never do so because you want to live life like your true authentic self.

Bisexual, polyamorous, homosexual, transsexual, asexual, intersexual, pansexual, polysexual, dominant, submissive…

As you can see, I can never make a whole list.

But all freaks and queers are included.

Consenting adults are free to live and love! At least in truth if not reality.

In reality everyone not within the bounds of normalcy, get to fight their whole life for the right to live as who they are.

That’s my destiny.

What’s yours?

Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder — Human Performance Psychology

When I say something about PTSD I’m often met with a vague fiction or trash-media inspired view.

Add to that it’s damn near impossible to explain how anyone can get that untethered in time and space.
People who don´t know me see me as; Calm, collected, resilient, on top of every crisis, stress resistant. Most of then resist the idea that I could stop being that with a push of a button.
But a button is what a trigger is. I’ve learned to recognize and if need be avoid most of them. And so avoid activating my PTSD. It took years of therapy and work to reach that.

But no one is ever fully taught. Or fully free from PTSD.

IF resent history teaches me anything it’s that there is still triggers BIG enough out there to send me tumbling down a hell-hole sooooo fast that I’m not even aware whats happening. That’s scary to admit, and scary to experience. And when that happens to anyone else out there I pray to all that is good in the world that you have people around you who can help.

Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) is a trauma and stress-related disorder that may develop after exposure to an event or ordeal in which death or severe physical harm occurred or was threatened. People who suffer from the disorder include military troops, rescue workers, and survivors of shootings, bombings, violence, and rape. Family members of victims can develop the disorder […]

Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder — Human Performance Psychology

Stable ground

I said something recently about having to find stable ground to stand on in order to be able to act in your own best interest.

I don’t mean wait until you feel better, I mean find some ray of light, a straw of hope, hold it dear and near, remind yourself often that there is hope, that things will get better if you work to make it better.

Then you have a sliver of stable ground to act as your first stepping stone. To make some small positive change. Which leads to more stable ground to hold the new life you’re building.

I’m not saying it’s easy, if you’re down enough, seeing any ray of hope, can be near impossible, or it hurts to much to admit there’s hope, because admitting it is one of the first steps of recovery.

Another thing I’ve learned trough the years is that you have to build your own stable ground. Sure you can lean on friends, loved ones or professionals, but you can’t borrow another’s serenity, peace, happiness, stability, inspiration, creativity or motivation. You have to have your own.

Now that my block, resistance and fear of writing is gone. I’ve recently started a real effort to see if journaling can be beneficial to me. It seems to raise people’s mindfulness, and I sure could use some. I’ll update you on how that turns out later.

I’m telling you this because I only managed to start after being shown some hope, leaning on someone for a bit, daring to be inspired by what another had accomplished. Then taking that energy and use it to propel me forward.

The 5 am club

Last week I read an article about Robin Sharma and his 5 am club. As a habitual night person I expected to scoff at the idea at rising at the crack of dawn. To my big surprise I didn’t. Instead it made me think about how much I like those early morning hours when the world is quiet and serene. It also made a few lines of lyrics play in my mind the entire weekend.

“Step out into the dawn
You pray ’til, you pray ’til the lights come on
And then you feel like you’ve just been born”
(Heaven by Avicii)

Leading my to admit to myself that even though I mostly see that part of day from the other end. Meaning I haven’t gone to bed yet. The times I like 5 am the most, and get the the most out of it, is when I greet the dawn to live the day, not greet it and then go to sleep. 

Now my curiosity where wide awake, so I went googling. And ended up reading articles, and watching a video Robin Sharma’s blog. Again I where in for a surprise, most self-help gurus raises my hackles. Sharma didn´t! The way he formulates himself in text, the way he talked on camera, the holistic approach to humans he seems to take.
Especially the two cited articles below resonated with me. ;-)

 “The misfits Manifesto”
I love the line: everyone seems normal—until you get to know them.
All I’m saying in this message is this…
…The things that make you a misfit in the eyes of the majority are the very things that make you special [and great/beautiful/a standout].
These are your gifts.

“How to let go of your past forever”
Let us not confuse the end result with the rigorous journey. May we not be seduced by the temptation to think those of great success have gifts we don’t have.
And opportunities we’ll never see.
So today, please understand that everything you’ve experienced in the past
was necessary for you to become the person you are today.
Your pain has purified you. Your stumbles have strengthened you.
Your failures have fortified you. It’s all been a brilliant–and perfect– path,
even when you resisted it most.

So, yeah, I’ll want to read more, hear more and know more. But I have NOT started to rise at five. Why? Well, I’ll quote Mr Sharma again.

“Change is hard at first, messy in the middle and gorgeous in the end.”

So with that in mind I decided that throwing my current, and just begun plan of change overboard right now. Would most likely be an act of self-sabotage and procrastination.

Instead I decided to read more blog posts, put that book on my serious – To Read – list. See what I can learn and incorporate right now. And then revisit the idea of the 5 am club when I’ve gotten a chance to work through the current plan.

 

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