Daily Haibun, August 18th – Fear Of Judgment


Today was deadline for the first writing assignment. I’ve been done since the weekend. Even so I waited. Knowing I shouldn’t tinker to much with the text but… fearing judgment! I realized, after some thought. I haven’t really felt that way when submitting anywhere. When submitting you either get a polite – Thanks, but no thanks. Or a joyous Yes please! And when participating in the writing prompts people tell you what they like, not what they don’t like.

This time the text will be read and critiqued by a small circle. And that fills with with the dread of every once bullied child. Will I measure up? Will I be accepted?

The rest of the day was spent flitting from one task to the next in nervousness. I haven’t even been able to read the others text yet. For fear I will find myself sorely lacking. This will be a true test if I can judge myself kindly.

Do leaves fear falling?

Judgement for its fall colours?

My colours are me

©RedCat



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Daily Haibun, August 8th – Pen & Paper

Once I feared the blank paper. Now I revere it. Because I’ve found the courage to dare to try. Learnt how to release my creativity.

Started to realise it’s all about writing, editing and rewriting. Few first draft is as good as the text can be.

Today I bought a couple of new notebooks and pens. Love the feel of flicking through still empty pages. Wondering what kind of stories and poems they’ll be filled with.

Shed old fears and doubts

Prepare mind space for new growth

A new life season

© RedCat



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Daily Haibun, August 4th – Whisper and Echoes


My mind is full of whispers and echoes. One inner saboteur saying an unkind nearly true thing. The rest of the choir chiming in with their own versions. Until it’s a cacophony swirling around.

It’s been like this as long as I can remember. I both long for and dread achievements. For they start such storms inside. Such deep self-doubt and loathing. I never learned to feel a sense of accomplishment. I never got told anything was good enough. I was always found lacking.

I’ve done my darnedest best to ignore this for most of my life. But that have made it louder not made it go away. I’ve met with derision when I tried to talk about it. Who doesn’t take pride in achievements?

Going forward I know, my mind and feelings are the biggest hurdles to overcome. The most likely thing to trip me up is ME.

But I’m done being ashamed of having learnt to be ashamed of everything about myself. And those that can’t handle that is no friends of mine.

A storm is brewing

Dark clouds roiling and rumbling

Waiting for a spark

© RedCat



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Daily Haibun, June 28th – Change Anxiety


Life is change. We grow from children to adolescents, and on to adulthood. We grow from young adults, to middle age ones and on to old age if we’re lucky. We change schools and jobs. Homes and hometowns. We might change friends and interests. We change clothes and hair styles.

We change in response to events we have no control over. Loss of loved ones. Accidents and catastrophy. Happenings in the whole wide world.

Yet, change is hard for so many. Even positive change. Leading to worry and anxiety. Ruminations about what could have been or what might happen. The confusing feeling of being adrift, without steady ground.

The last year have been a perplexing mix of change while at the same time standing still. Sheltering from the pandemic. More changes will come when we get back to a new normal. We really should change our behaviour concerning destroying the planet we live on.

I have a day or two left before I have to decide on how much I want my life to change in the coming year. Needless to say, my mind is spinning like crazy, weighing every option.

Seed bud flower wilt
Seasons change eternally
Flow with the changes

© RedCat



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Step Into The Unknown


Do you dare to step into the unknown
Are you willing to walk the path creativity has shown

Do you have the tenacity to rewrite your fate all alone
Can you keep faith in the passion burning in the marrow of your bones

Do you nourish the seeds so long ago sown
Can you care for the tender shoots out of the fertile psyche-loam grown

©RedCat

Photo by Ravi Roshan on Unsplash

This is my contribution for this week’s weekend writing prompt by Sammi Cox. It’s very similar to `When Opportunity Comes To Call` that I wrote about a week ago. Testament to what is currently whirling in my mind.

This weekend’s word is unknown and the word count is 65 words. The poem consists of three rhymed couplets.


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Daily Haibun, June 17th – Demilune


The demilune* is bright in the pale sky. The light calming after a warm busy day. Lending peace to evening meditation. Giving calm to an overheated psyche.

My mind is still running itself ragged with too many thoughts and too much self doubt. But I try to function and make decisions despite that. Since I know waiting for it to pass is a fool’s game I’ll lose.

In the balmy night
The demilune shines bright
Calming my minds sight

©RedCat


*Demilune is another word for half-moon.


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Daily Haibun, June 16th – Self doubts


Do buds hesitate before bursting into bloom? Do lightning hold off its strike? Do waves fear smashing into rocks? Do babies delay their birth?

Why then do I question every decision? Though I weigh every option to infinity. Fear succeeding more than failing? Yet, have the will and drive to try. Procrastinate every effort just to twart myself? Trap myself in loops of deep self-doubt and self recriminations?

The wind blows freely
Flowers grow, follow the flow
Wish to be like them

© RedCat


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