Falling Apart by Pegboard Nerds, Stonebank & EMEL – Saturday Song

Falling Apart by Pegboard Nerds, Stonebank & EMEL

Can upbeat happy songs convey feelings of depression. Sure it can!

Tonight’s Saturday song is one such example. Released less than two weeks ago Falling Apart by Pegboard Nerds, Stonebank & EMEL is a happy bounce around trance anthem that I would love to dance wildly to while forgetting all my troubles!

If you can’t laugh at the darkness it will swallow you whole.

Enjoy!

Falling Apart Lyrics

Watch my life pass me by
Never knowing where I belong
In the web of love and lies
As you string me along and
I can’t breathe, I can’t see
I’m losing sight of everything
I feel the walls closing in, closing in
Am I falling apart?
Oh I just wanna be free
I just wanna be free
I think I’m falling apart
Oh I just wanna be free, free, free
I’m falling apart
I’m falling apart
I’m falling apart
I’m falling apart
I can’t breathe, I can’t see
I’m losing sight of everything
I feel the walls closing in, closing in
I feel I’m falling apart, I feel I’m falling apart
I’m falling apart
I’m falling apart, Think I’m falling apart
I’m falling apart
I’m falling apart
Watch my life pass me by
Never knowing where I belong
In the web of love and lies
As you string me along and
I can’t breathe, I can’t see
I’m losing sight of everything
I feel the walls closing in, closing in
I feel I’m falling apart
I feel I’m falling apart
I’m falling apart
I’m falling apart
I’m falling apart
I’m falling apart
I feel I’m falling apart
I feel I’m falling apart
I feel I’m falling apart
I’m falling apart
I’m falling apart
I’m falling apart
I’m falling apart
Lyrics source

Falling Apart by Pegboard Nerds, Stonebank & EMEL

Saturday 18 September, 2021 0

Wake Me Up! by Avicii – Saturday Song

Wake Me Up! by Avicii

This week’s song choice was inspired by a Google doodle this week. Wednesday the 8th was the birthday of the late Avicii (Tim Bergling). He would have been thirty-two this year. In hindsight it’s easy to think that many of his songs are about his struggles with mental health. And they probably are to some extent. Such problems usually seep out in any work done by a creative person whether it’s intentional or not. When I read through my own writing the pain and suffering shines clear and bright even when I had no intentions to share it. Just last week someone asked how I was after reading something from this summer. And the answer is it’s neither better nor worse. But it made me think again about how much it shows in what I write. And that before I have written it all out of my system I won’t get past it to write something else. Or maybe my characters will always carry a hint of pain and sorrow. Who knows?

The song featured in the doodle is Wake me up! which was a megahit and therefore both loved and hated. I like the lyrics written and sung by Aloe Blacc (you’ll find his acoustic version below) and for someone like me it’s hard not to connect to the video’s story of searching for and finding that place where you belong.

Whatever you think of it. And whether or not you find any hope in the lyrics, I hope you feel like you belong and that you are loved and cherished!

Enjoy!

Wake me up! – Lyrics

Feeling my way through the darkness
Guided by a beating heart
I can’t tell where the journey will end
But I know where to start
They tell me I’m too young to understand
They say I’m caught up in a dream
Well life will pass me by if I don’t open up my eyes
Well that’s fine by me
So wake me up when it’s all over
When I’m wiser and I’m older
All this time I was finding myself, and I
Didn’t know I was lost
So wake me up when it’s all over
When I’m wiser and I’m older
All this time I was finding myself, and I
Didn’t know I was lost
I tried carrying the weight of the world
But I only have two hands
Hope I get the chance to travel the world
But I don’t have any plans
Wish that I could stay forever this young
Not afraid to close my eyes
Life’s a game made for everyone
And love is a prize
So wake me up when it’s all over
When I’m wiser and I’m older
All this time I was finding myself, and I
Didn’t know I was lost
So wake me up when it’s all over
When I’m wiser and I’m older
All this time I was finding myself, and I
I didn’t know I was lost
I didn’t know I was lost
I didn’t know I was lost
I didn’t know I was lost
I didn’t know
Source: LyricFind
Songwriters: Tim Bergling / Michael Aaron Einziger / Egbert Nathaniel Dawkins
Lyrics to Wake Me Up © Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC, Universal Music Publishing Group, Kobalt Music Publishing Ltd.

Wake Me Up! with Aloe Blacc

Wake Me Up! by Avicii

Saturday 11 September, 2021 0

Breathe Deep. Breath Slow. – A Mantra (2020 Re-post)

Breathe deep. Breath slow.
Breathe deep. Breath slow.
Take your time to inward go.
Breathe deep. Breath slow.
Cultivate space to grow.
Breathe deep. Breath slow.
Investigates what lies below.
Breathe deep. Breath slow.
Release all that keeps you low.
Breathe deep. Breath slow.
Accept all there is in the now.
Breathe deep. Breath slow.
Connect to life force flow.
Breathe deep. Breath slow.
Listen to your higher self say so.
Breathe deep. Breath slow.
Learn what wisdom want you to know.
Breathe deep. Breath slow.
Changed awareness new seeds sow.
Breathe deep. Breath slow.
Let the winds of change blow.
Breathe deep. Breath slow.
Trust your soul your path to show.
Breathe deep. Breath slow.
Bathe in inner divine glow.
Breathe deep. Breath slow.
Let the universe its love bestow.
Breathe deep. Breath slow.
© REDCAT

Re-post comment:

For tonight’s Wandering the Archives Wednesday.
I’ll share this meditation mantra.
I think of it whenever I feel I need to calm and center myself.
I might not repeat all the lines, but enough repetitions of just
– Breathe deep, breathe slow –
works just as well.

Enjoy!

I like repetitions and rhymes. I also like meditation and mantras. :-)
“Breath deep. Breath slow.” – was the first meditation poem I wrote. Which coincides with the first day I started to seriously meditate. Right now I’m thankful for the fact that I managed to make it into a habit before the pandemic started. Without that daily dose of peace and grounding. Without that self-care, I think my depression would have bloomed right now, fueled my the ongoing catastrophe.

Wednesday 1 September, 2021 1

Eric Sharp – Monday Blues feat Zhao (with Lyrics) – Saturday Song

Eric Sharp – Monday Blues feat Zhao

As I wrote my daily Haibun Monday, I began thinking of songs about Monday Blues. Searching around a bit I found an artist I never heard of before, with a really good song about struggling with the blues, and hope of overcoming it. So here’s tonight’s Saturday Song: Eric Sharp – Monday Blues feat Zhao. It felt really very relatable. I couldn’t find the lyrics online, so in the end I decided to transcribe them myself since I feel they deliver an important message of hope and friendship.

“Monday Blues is a personal piece that comes from a place of empathy and compassion. It was written during a time when someone very close to me was unearthing deep-seated psychic pain in a healing process from their past. The verses are imbued with struggle and heaviness, while the chorus inspires hope, and faith in the ability move beyond our hurts together. Everyone has challenges in life, and we are never alone in our feelings. There is no wound too deep to be made whole, and I hope this song reminds people of that.’
– Eric Sharp – Acid Stag article

Eric Sharp – Monday Blues feat Zhao – Lyrics

Monday blues trying to get you down
Let’s not talk about, ever wanna talk about
Everybody gonna let you down
Let’s not talk about, ever wanna talk about
You say that you don’t need love
Let’s not talk about, ever wanna talk about
I was over to you had enough
Let’s not talk about, ever wanna talk about
We’re gonna find our way out of the hole we dug
Make back what we lost
Times when we gave up
We never compromise until we’re satisfied
Through this troubled times I’ll be by your side
Wide awake in the dead of night
Let’s not talk about, ever wanna talk about
Fear chasing me through my mind
Let’s not talk about, ever wanna talk about
Hurry up it’s gonna be to late
Let’s not talk about, ever wanna talk about
It not enough just to be okey
Let’s not talk about, ever wanna talk about
Let’s not talk about, ever wanna talk about
We’re gonna find our way out of the hole we dug
Make back what we lost
Times when we gave up
We never compromise until we’re satisfied
Through this troubled times I’ll be by your side
We’re gonna
We’re gonna find our way out of the hole we dug
Make back what we lost
Times when we gave up
We never compromise until we’re satisfied
Through this troubled times I’ll be by your side
We’re gonna find our way out of the hole we dug
Make back what we lost
Times when we gave up
We never compromise until we’re satisfied
Through this troubled times I’ll be by your side
Lyrics to Eric Sharp – Monday Blues feat Zhao (Transcribed by RedCat from the extended mix, any errors are mine.)

Eric Sharp – Monday Blues feat Zhao

Saturday 21 August, 2021 0

Daily Haibun, August 16th – Monday Blues

Mondays are blue. I feel restless and lost. Anxious about anything and everything. Everything feels meaningless and not worth the effort. I soldier through as best I can. But when evening falls, however much I’ve gotten done. I feel lacking in every aspect.

Rain falls like tears do

Filling my heart with sorrow

Stuck in Monday blues

© RedCat

Read other Haibun’s written for the monthly dVerse prompt by me here.

Read other Daily Haibun’s here.

Monday 16 August, 2021 1

Daily Haibun, August 1st – The End of Summer

It isn’t really the end of summer yet. Some weeks with warmth and light remains. But my mind is already moving on. Thinking about the coming fall, it’s return to routines and it’s changes. Of harvest and reaping the rewards of work and toil.

The light will leak out of the sky and we’ll be plunged into darkness again. I’m cautiously optimistic about suffering less from my depression this winter. But time will tell.

As fields turn golden

Crickets through the evenings play

Thoughts turn to autumn

© RedCat

Read other Haibun’s written for the monthly dVerse prompt by me here.

Read other Daily Haibun’s here.

Sunday 1 August, 2021 0

Firework by Katy Perry – Saturday Song

Firework by Katy Perry

After writing both As I Reap The Dreams That I Have Sown and August Approaches yesterday, I decided that tonight’s Saturday Song had to be one about overcoming obstacles, adversity, challenges and hard times. About not giving up, even when that’s all you feel like doing. I found this list of songs about all that. So I started to read lyrics and the choice fell on Firework by Katy Perry.

Do you ever feel like a plastic bag
Drifting through the wind, wanting to start again?
Do you ever feel, feel so paper thin
Like a house of cards, one blow from cavin’ in?
Do you ever feel already buried deep?
Six feet under screams, but no one seems to hear a thing
From Firework by Katy Perry

I know exactly how that feels. But now I have to get away from that, find my voice, develop my passion and allow my light to shine bright.

Enjoy!

Firework – Lyrics

Do you ever feel like a plastic bag
Drifting through the wind, wanting to start again?
Do you ever feel, feel so paper thin
Like a house of cards, one blow from cavin’ in?
Do you ever feel already buried deep?
Six feet under screams, but no one seems to hear a thing
Do you know that there’s still a chance for you?
‘Cause there’s a spark in you
You just gotta ignite the light
And let it shine
Just own the night
Like the Fourth of July
‘Cause baby, you’re a firework
Come on, show ’em what you’re worth
Make ’em go, “Oh, oh, oh”
As you shoot across the sky
Baby, you’re a firework
Come on, let your colors burst
Make ’em go, “Oh, oh, oh”
You’re gonna leave ’em all in awe, awe, awe
You don’t have to feel like a waste of space
You’re original, cannot be replaced
If you only knew what the future holds
After a hurricane comes a rainbow
Maybe a reason why all the doors are closed
So you could open one that leads you to the perfect road
Like a lightning bolt, your heart will glow
And when it’s time, you’ll know
You just gotta ignite the light
And let it shine
Just own the night
Like the Fourth of July
‘Cause baby, you’re a firework
Come on, show ’em what you’re worth
Make ’em go, “Oh, oh, oh”
As you shoot across the sky
Baby, you’re a firework
Come on, let your colors burst
Make ’em go, “Oh, oh, oh”
You’re gonna leave ’em all in awe, awe, awe
Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon
It’s always been inside of you, you, you
And now it’s time to let it through
‘Cause baby, you’re a firework
Come on, show ’em what you’re worth
Make ’em go, “Oh, oh, oh”
As you shoot across the sky
Baby, you’re a firework
Come on, let your colors burst
Make ’em go, “Oh, oh, oh”
You’re gonna leave ’em all in awe, awe, awe
Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon
Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon
Source: LyricFind
Song writers: Esther Dean, Sandy Julien Wilhelm, Tor Erik Hermansen, Mikkel Storleer Eriksen, Katheryn Hudson
Lyric to Firework © Peermusic Publishing, Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC, Warner Chappell Music, Inc, BMG Rights Management, DistroKid