Re-post comment:
This Pantoum sums up the way I’ve been feeling for a couple of weeks now. Again achieving things I long for and dream about sends me into a tailspin of deep self doubt, shame and anxiety. So I thought it fitting to make this the archive find for this week.
On the cusp of a dream achieved
Truth of inner worth freed
Bone deep self doubt revealed
Planted with every unmet needTruth of inner worth freed
A girl bred to never succeed
Planted with every unmet need
She never learnt how to receiveA girl bred to never succeed
A light shone where kind self-love breeds
She never learnt how to receive
Sorrow joy supersedeA light shone where kind self-love breeds
© REDCAT
Bone deep self doubt revealed
Sorrow joy supersede
On the cusp of a dream achieved
I refuse to let my current depressive slide stop my writing. So today I sat down to see if I could write a poem about my truth, my life, and the added stress that accounts for the current mood.
I long known I self-sabotage and have trouble receiving positive praise, but I didn’t know it ran this deep. I thought sending the submissions out where the struggle. The last weeks have shown me, that success and actually achieving a lifelong dream, with grace and real joy, is the real struggle and it’s only just begun.
This is one of my favorite linked forms, a pantoum.
My process for writing a pantoum goes something like this…
The pattern is ABCD, BEDF, EGFH, GCHA. Since line A and C becomes both the start and end I usually write the first and last stanza, then the middle ones.
Also shared to dVerse’s Open Link Night.
The world according to RedCat 
Keep faking it until you make it, I always enjoy seeing you’re writing!
I will keep trying! Thank you! 🌹
See I fake being able to write and I can’t even get my grammar right (your/you’re) 🤦♂️
I think all of us gets grammar wrong occasionally. I know I certainly do. In a poem I might have said something, unless someone else already had. In a comment I view it as a keyboard or autocorrect stumble. 😀